trigger warning sexual assault, street harassment, disordered eating, mental health.
So… I have PTSD and a lot of bullshit life experience and sometimes that means that things that are normally scary for me like being groped non consensually in the club, being followed, being shouted at can on some days be something that causes me to have a panic attack, to dissociate, and/or to have a flash back. And sometimes when enough garbage accumulates I find the experience of leaving my apartment impossible and there are times where I find the idea of eating impossible. And that is a struggle of mine. I have good friends. One of my friends is coming over and eating with me and another one of my friends… idk… they said some stuff… maybe it’ll help… but I overall know that I have people who care about me and yeah… that doesn’t solve the problem and I don’t know if anything short of a giant monster following me around eating everyone who hurts me would solve it and I don’t know what I’ll do when I “grow up” and don’t have the ability to stay in my apt and have panic attacks all day but I can get through today and that is important.
